Cherish everything

The Theory Of Everything.

Have you ever wanted something so bad that all you could do is cry????? I've never wanted something as much as I want this thing I want right now. Pls notice that I say a thing, not someone hahahhaha. Ive never wanted ipods or handbag or shoes as much as I want this thing this time. I really want it to the level that I cry at the thought of it. Like srsly every time I think of this one thing, all I could do is cry.  And pls dont say "u dont get everythng u want, but u get everythng u need" because that is totally not comforting :-( this time is the worst.

THIS IS SO TRUE I KENOT DENY. This comes whenever I wake up from a nightmare. E.g. last few days I had a nightmare which was, I was bitten by a rabbit. And the rabbit had fangs!!!!! Gigi taring. It was weird and hella scary wey!!!!!!!! This feeling also comes when I read some novels with bad endings. Also when I watch gossip girl and I get emotional. Ah.

Sometimes we're attached to the picture of someone. To how we believe s/he is, even when that someone has changed. Hold on to something that doesn't exist anymore.  And sadly, this is one of the things I've always been good at. (some people think I do not feel a thing because I have this emotionless get-out-of-my-way-i-hate-you look and i dont care and im never serious and im just playing around) But BREAKING NEWS: wajihah zaki does have a thing called feelings.

Some people could literally do ANYTHING and we still cant afford to hate them because we have loved them in the first place.. Betrayal. Dishonesty. People we do not love wont have the power to hurt us. It's the people we love.. who could cause so much pain. But then, we still cant hate them, because we have loved them in the first place. Because love comes with trust. Giving someone the gun, trusting them to not shoot us. And then the next second, everything has fallen apart. Idk, shit happens. Life goes on :-)

Love yourself. Be happy, be bitchy, be nice, laugh as loud as you want, be whatever you want, do whatever you want. It's your life. When are you going to realize that it's yours? It's yours to live. Ignore what people think. Love the ones you think you deserve. Appreciate your friends. Listen to music you love. Wear what you want, wear what makes you feel good & confident. It's ok to miss a party because you just want to stay home. Create some memories. Rules are meant to be broken anyway?? Do not let your past dictate you. Everyone has a past but everyone deserves a future. When someone doesnt make you feel good, walk away. It's ok. You dont have to live up to people's expectations. Be who you wanna be. Because at the end of the day, happiness is all that matters, be happy, it's your choice and you deserve happiness. Be selfish because people are going to be harsh and you need to stand up for yourself. Be overprotective of yourself. Because you deser...

Wow it is already 2015.  (And call me lame but I'm still on Blogger hahahhahhaha. *gosok Blogger sikit ala ala kucing*) I AM ALREADY 18!!!! Well, maybe not yet officially but I've reached legal age. Ceh padahal sama je. Still the same person. I have so much to know. A whole world to travel. A lot of people to meet. And I hope I would have the chance to do what I've always wanted to do. To go to places I've always wanted to go. And meet people I've always wanted to meet. e.g. Luke Hemmings, Zayn Malik ehehehe. Alhamdulillah. I feel ok now. Like I'm not sad but I am also not so happy so I'm just ok. Idk if it's just me, but the roller coaster of life really does exist kan? Like sometimes we feel like everything has fallen into place and then there's this time where everything feels not right, which I could say the way Allah wants us to come back to him, pray, cry to him, tell him. Maybe. Hope sometimes can hurt kan. When we hope so much ...