Cherish everything

The way you talked obscenely about her to your friends, how you downgraded her, how you made her feel so worthless, those words will haunt her forever. You absolutely destroyed her. It hurt her a lot but she would learn and grow from it. She would come out stronger and wiser, she would be happier than she ever was with you. I hope you won't choke on your own words. When things don't go your way, when you're at your lowest, don't find her. When you come across things that remind you of her, or the place you used to go together, don't find her. When you find someone else and the things she does remind you of her, or this someone turns out to be different, don't come back and find her. Don't find me. Because from now on, there shall be no turning back. Thank you for showing me your true colours, I won't try to paint a different picture.

If you happen to settle down with someone one day, I hope you'll have beautiful daughter(s). I hope you'll deeply love and genuinely care for your little girls. You'll be around her as she grows up. And then you send her off to school. And she meets boys. I hope one day you'll watch your little girl slamming her door, not coming out of her room for days. I hope you'll be there to see her finally coming out with swollen eyes and when you ask her what's wrong she'll tell you it's nothing. I hope you'll care enough to check her room and find the pills she chokes herself to sleep just because everything she feels is so overwhelming. I hope when that day comes, you know you have no one to blame but yourself. Because you are one of those boys. And I'm a firm believer that the world is fair and what goes around always comes around. Update: I wrote this when I was all emotional. I don't wish this to happen to you.. or anyone. I don't hold grud...

To all the heartbreakers I've known before, I hope you'll meet her, the one that makes your heart flutter. I hope you'll meet someone that makes you happy enough to stay. I hope you'll feel content and know the joy of loving someone. I hope when you shower her with all your love, she gets up and leaves.

Week 9 of being an undergrad student!!!!!!! Whoever told you "asasi je busy, degree nanti relax"............... s/he's totally lying. Maynnnn I've been having multiple quizzes and tests all in a week since week 3 (now is already week 9, almost 2 hectic months u see so I have all the right to rant ok I deserve to rant). Life was busy back then in foundation but it's even busier now. E.g. I had a test and a quiz on Monday, Tuesday ok la free but then Tuesday class from 8am to 6pm, Wednesday got another test, Thursday got quiz pulak. I could spend my time scrolling social medias for hours before I actually slept back then in foundation. But.... I've been having hectic days now and all I want to do is literally sleep. Also, looking back.. Most of my posts are sappy heartbroken posts??? Really sis is that the only thing u think of....... smh if I were a character in The Sims I'd be the one with the love trait.

You love me? You love me not? That's the question that has been lingering in my mind. But the courage to ask, is something I do not have. And the truth is something I'm not ready to know.

The things I would've done right if I had another chance, that's the worst part of our break up. How many nights had I spent waiting for your call with I miss you coming out from your lips . Those same lips that said the break up lines. The call that never came. Don't get me started with how I broke down and the nights my pillows turned into river of tears. The day I told myself wow you're getting better this is good just to drench myself in tears of despair again at night. Don't get me started with how my dad asked "why do you look so sad? If it's because of your broken iPod, we'll get a new one soon". Little did he know, it wasn't the iPod but the heart. How many times had I cringed as Spotify decided to play our song . But never did I skip that song, it reminded me of (what I thought was) a good time. "He's not worth it my dear, you deserve so much more", they said. And I listed every single thing I loved about you. Every tim...

I had experienced going for Pharmacy and Medicine interviews. I thought that it would be useful if I shared this. (Both of these were in 2016)  (Pharmacy interview is in previous post) Medicine interview I applied for Medicine through Dana Kecemerlangan UiTM - UNHAS. You'll be sent to UNHAS in Makassar to take up Medicine for five and one-half years. The interview was held in UiTM Shah Alam. We were first gathered in a hall for explanation session. After that, we had to submit our copies of certificates. USD180 had to be paid before we were interviewed by UNHAS panel. The interview was a one-to-one session. Mind you the interviewers were all important people from the faculty and university. The Dean, Rector etc. This interview was like.... other usual interviews. My experience, firstly I had to introduce myself. And then talk about my family background and my education background. Basically, the first few questions were the predictable ones. Why Medicine. Why sho...