#62

Alhamdulillah. 

The waiting is over. Alhamdulillah for my results. Alhamdulillah it is worth it enduring heartbreaks and pain in high school. I was really a sucker for straight As, so I could prove those people who have been belittling me, I can do it. My niat was wrong, I know. SPM is not everything afterall. Unilife will not be easy. I will have to start from zero again.

Feeling? To be honest, i feel relieved, that was all. All along my waiting, i had always had the thought that i would not get what i wanted. Because of things i had done, because i wasnt that nice before. But seeing your bestfriends crying, is not a nice feeling. I feel terrible :( how can i be happy when my loved ones are not happy? Who should i share my happiness with? This sounds clice but that was really what I felt....

Alhamdulillah, Allah kat atas bagi rezeki lebih sikit. Tapi takut, what did I do to deserve this much rezeki. Banyak sangat rezeki. Alhamdulillah. Mama kata spm ni lagi satu ujian, Allah nak tengok how grateful I am.

Anyway, congratulations everyone. Be grateful. He knows best. He is the best Planner. Do believe in Him, have faith in His plan. We all did well to be honest. Tapi rezeki tu, bukan kerja kita. Orang lain ada rezeki kat tempat lain insyaAllah. Kejayaan hari ni pun tak menjamin kejayaan hari esok. Ye, hidup ni umpama roda, kadang kat atas, kadang kat bawah, kadang roda tu rosak lama jugak stuck kat bawah...... Dah la bye.